How Fitting...

The hardest thing for me is to just sit and watch... It has been like that all my life. I like contributing, and being involved. I think just obeying in general is one of the hardest things anybody can ask me to do. From sports to ministry, it is so hard for me to obey. I find it kind of funny and ironic that this past Sunday's message was about obedience... and how in the the first week of doing the praise team bible study that I found how the topic of obedience caught my eye...

The irony of how that happened makes me laugh but also fills me with frustration. Because now I find myself in a situation with two options... while the clear choice is to obey God immediately, I can't help the fact that it does hurt me to do it His way. But I know His way is the best way for me and the situation. So I find it fitting after a week of hearing and reading about obedience that I am tested. I guess I just gotta obey and pray.

WTWF

Wow... That was fast...

I never thought I would be able to overcome this obstacle so quickly. All I gotta say is thanks God... I don't know what the future holds... but I will obey and do the best I can to stay on track.

The Re-Return...

I find it funny how quickly I can have a change of heart... It's been a good 2.5-3 years since I really cared about God and my spiritual life. Now more than ever I find myself wanting to be in His presence. I forgot how good it felt to be in His presence, but yet it feels so awkward to change my lifestyle... but man it's good to be back on the side that counts...

Yet again I find myself in a difficult situation... but this time I know how to handle this... I must put my wants, needs, desires, and pride aside in order to do the right thing... Lord give me the eyes to see the right path...

I guess in the first month of the new decade I decided to start off with complete obedience..

I am excited for what the future holds, both the bad and the good.