Last Stand

For most of my life I would like to say that I've had to work hard to achieve something. Not that I'm saying I come from a poor family with a difficult surrounding... but in certain situations, impossible situations, I've had to claw my way to get to where I needed to be... and now I find myself in the same situation... an impossible situation...

But more than my own hard work... it is God's grace, mercy, and provision that has led me out of the depths of certain failure... I thank Him for all the things He has done for me.. Now at the last step of my journey I find myself in a situation where all odds are against me, but more than ever I have complete faith that He will deliver me from this situation, and if things do not go according to my plan, I know that His plan is best for me...

So with that all being said... God I leave it all up to you, help me in this impossible situation so that I can use this as a testimony to show your great and awesome power.

How Fitting...

The hardest thing for me is to just sit and watch... It has been like that all my life. I like contributing, and being involved. I think just obeying in general is one of the hardest things anybody can ask me to do. From sports to ministry, it is so hard for me to obey. I find it kind of funny and ironic that this past Sunday's message was about obedience... and how in the the first week of doing the praise team bible study that I found how the topic of obedience caught my eye...

The irony of how that happened makes me laugh but also fills me with frustration. Because now I find myself in a situation with two options... while the clear choice is to obey God immediately, I can't help the fact that it does hurt me to do it His way. But I know His way is the best way for me and the situation. So I find it fitting after a week of hearing and reading about obedience that I am tested. I guess I just gotta obey and pray.

WTWF

Wow... That was fast...

I never thought I would be able to overcome this obstacle so quickly. All I gotta say is thanks God... I don't know what the future holds... but I will obey and do the best I can to stay on track.

The Re-Return...

I find it funny how quickly I can have a change of heart... It's been a good 2.5-3 years since I really cared about God and my spiritual life. Now more than ever I find myself wanting to be in His presence. I forgot how good it felt to be in His presence, but yet it feels so awkward to change my lifestyle... but man it's good to be back on the side that counts...

Yet again I find myself in a difficult situation... but this time I know how to handle this... I must put my wants, needs, desires, and pride aside in order to do the right thing... Lord give me the eyes to see the right path...

I guess in the first month of the new decade I decided to start off with complete obedience..

I am excited for what the future holds, both the bad and the good.

How I Met My Wifey 1x11- The Last "Uno" part "Dos"

Well this will be officially the last "HIMMW" post... sooo let me recap this past decade

2000- Rude awakening... didn't know high school would be such a pain... but found out that I love football

2001- Rough year... school was also another pain... it seriously killed me... I think this is the year that I started really pursuing after girls.. but nothing ever came to pass

2002- Better year- ended sophomore year badly and went to mexico missions to get away from the family and came back as a christian... after that school was much better but I didn't get to play football..

2003- Highs and Lows.. Junior year pretty much consumed my life.. nothing really exciting happened

2004- Good, bad, and horrible... Good because I played football again... Good because I was a senior who really didn't do much school work, bad because I was growing up and starting to forge a path for myself.. horrible because my dog, the bestest bud in the whole wide world died...

2005- Interesting... Going to de anza was probably the most boringest thing you could ever do. but later on in the year I went to KCCC and that is where I met many good bad as well as fake people.

2006- Exciting... KCCC pretty much was the focus of this year... hit it off really well with this girl... went on mission to thailand.. and was ready for a challenging year with KCCC

2007- Fatigue... KCCC pretty much drained every single moment of my life this year... the same girl and I were really becoming close and I thought she liked me... overall beginning of the year was extremely difficult, but at the end of it missions made up for it. Totally dominated beijing and came back refreshed

2008- Disappointments... KCCC was becoming a burden upon me and I was asked to do uncomfortable things which lead to my rebellion on them. Luckily good ol Chuck came by to the rescue and helped me to really learn the meaning of sacrifice... but still was bitter towards KCCC, and the girl that I thought that liked me really didn't like me and kind of played me.. so at the end of the summer, I decided to depart from KCCC even though I had went to school. So with all that time I decided to take up coaching football and found the passion I once had for this sport. Ended the year very normally, nothing good or bad happened..

2009- New beginning... Most of the year I just went to school and waited until spring football practice. Also took up softball and really loved the fact that I was competing as an athlete rather than a coach. So pretty much from May- November I was constantly busied with life. Football, to softball, church retreats, to praise band practices. Just recently after the football season was over I really found some rest, and was actually quite bored. But probably the best thing out of 2009 was finding a new church. It was nice to be around people my age and the level of spirituality. And to end on a very good note... Went to my favorite noona's wedding and gave the cold shoulder to the girl that I liked and she looked kinda hurt by it.. (it felt oh soooo good), and the last retreat was pretty darn good...

so.. if I had to sum up the decade... I would say that it pretty much sucked because of the first half... so hopefully the new year and decade will be better. and with that folks I conclude my last "HIMMW" post.

Adios

How I Met My Wifey 1x10- The Last "Uno"

Hmm so it's been exactly 7 months since my last post... did I have anything to report in those 7 months? Yes... in fact life went on as planned. Let me list what went as planned...

Survived summer through fall... didn't really expect to make it through because I was jam packed with my schedule, but weirdly enough I always found time to rest and rebound from whatever I was doing.

Coached football... I made it through another year of coaching those boys and if there is seriously one thing that I learned is that as a coach you have to put your team in a situation where we can take the victory.. sadly enough it didn't happen, but overall I was pleased from how we progressed, it was indeed a great learning experience. In fact in this season alone, my decision making in life has been much sharper than ever.

Now sadly enough those were the two big things that I expected to go as planned now there were many things that didn't go as planned, and yes some were bad, but some were also very pleasant.

Injuries... Well I started playing softball this summer, and my first season was okay... I was able to hit, but it wasn't consistent. However in the 2nd season I started off both good and bad.. good because I was finally becoming a consistent hitter, bad I got banged up pretty badly in the first game... bad ankle sprain on the right leg, and bruised heel bone on the left. But since I was a coach, I received free medical attention at the school I was coaching, and within 2 weeks I was back to normal... And as soon as I was becoming a monster hitter... I really messed up my right leg and for about 10 weeks I can still feel the pain, but it's getting much better.

New Church... Well I decided to check a new church out because... hmm actually I really don't have a reason, I just decided to check it out because I heard a good things about this church. And let me say that it is very nice being people around your age. In fact I really enjoyed the first sermon and decided to come out because it's been a while since I really took in a sermon and remembered it. Weirdly enough I really do believe that at this church I can turn my walk with God 180 degrees and finally start walking down the good path. I'm actually excited about this upcoming year with this church.. and let me say the only things that really excite me in life is good food, video games, and sports.. it's been a while since I've been excited about anything church related.

This blog... so I named my last ten posts as "How I Met My Wifey." The reason being that last year I decided to lose all this weight and get a girlfriend... and sadly enough the losing weight and finding a girl didn't even start. So I decided that this is the finale for my posts being named "How I Met My Wifey" thus which I titled it the last "uno" (uno-one) so this is will be my last post of this era. But I must have talked about so many ridiculous things when I started this how i met my wifey thing. Well before the year ends I shall write one more time to sum up how this decade was for me... but until then

peace out hombres!

How I Met My Wifey 1x09- Little Cupertino

So where was I? Ahhh yes now I remember. I talked how I didn't want to do things that would hold me back. And after pondering about it I have actually decided to do nothing... For me the "plan" was to graduate and become a staff... and then the "plan" was to go date the "girl" (the one 3 yrs ago girl), and live down in So-Cal, and then after a year or two maybe marry her and keep on doing the staff thing. But I've found out that the "plan" never works out... So basically screw that "plan" and screw the new "plan."

So then what do I do without a plan? How do I go on with my life? It's simple... I can't design my life like some kind of building, it doesn't work that way... I just have to live it and it'll design itself. So does that mean I do nothing? Absolutely not... I just listen to what the Big Man is saying upstairs and just take the eventually take the leap.

So yeah there you have it folks... I'm not going to have this illustrious well thought out master plan for my life... I'm just going to live it day by day and see where I'm going. But the first thing I will definitely do is lose some freaking weight in the summer.. For too long has this tub of fat been clinging onto my stomach and sides... I shall shed these handles off my body... I'll somehow find a way to shed the pounds but thats for tomorrow to decide. alrite short post this time

peace out hombres!